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take my loveless out of my soul
take me 'til I'm on a roll
tell me I am out of your hands
take it all night for it to stand
I'm supposed to be angry
I'm supposed to be sad
I'm supposed to be anything but what I am
built like a dam
I'd cry if I can
if I tell you not to come back
maybe then I will lose track
oh, wouldn't you like that?
if you love me, walk away
I'm hoping you will not stay
take my loveless when you go
before it ever takes a toll
I'm supposed to be angry
I'm supposed to be sad
I'm supposed to be anything but what I am
built like a damn I'd cry if I can
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the downpour
I hope nobody is out in this
do you want to be my witness for
I tried to bottle it up
but it wasn't enough
the downpour
I made a fatal mistake to end it
a finale to a friendship and what for
I said bottoms up
I grabbed every cup
so what I don't have to do
is think about you
the downpour
I forgot my lines
as I stumbled through that rendition
you spotted every omission of mine
I tried to bottle it up
but it wasn't enough
so what I'm trying to do
is not think about you
why can't I sink through this floor
I know what I'm headed for
the downpour, the downpour, the downpour
I grabbed every cup
I said bottoms up
so what I don't have to do
is think about you
why can't I sink through this floor
I know what I'm headed for
I know what I'm headed for
I know what I'm headed for
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a morning of cautious stepping around
and she leaves and you go to the window
her trail is marked quite clear on the ground
from the still falling snow
your neighbour must have stopped her to speak
two footprints have shuffled around
he likes to keep tabs on the girl who comes home
he wonders where girls can be found
I'm walking upstairs
wishing there were someone up there
she will never be very close to me
an evening of drinks and fooling around
and you quickly dress for the theatre
she smiles and you both help me shovel my car
you're always showing what a nice guy you are
a longing for some uncontrollable scene
and I think about seeing a movie
but the snow's down in this quiet town and there's nothing to do,
so I'll talk for a moment with you
I'm walking upstairs
wishing there were someone up there
she will never be very close to me
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moonlight filtered through the trees
snow heavy on the boughs
your grip was frosty and your sleeve
had shown where you'd fallen down
you'd fallen down
I'm wondering how I could've known
without hearing the words that you brought
just know that when I played along
I got buried in snow, I got caught
I got caught
touch me again with your icy breeze
can that be all you have for me?
I'm slow to agree
blow me back and shut this door
it's sad, I've never wanted you more
it's like some cruel decree
I walk all over this frozen lake
I see all these people on skates
I may look cold, I may shiver
but that's not me, it's just winter
oh no, I'm not bitter
and nothing else could have made it clear
that lovely way you walk through snow
I needed you to bring me here
I guess you needed me to see and then go
well, I'll go
sidle up beside me now
don't worry about me falling down
I'm good at falling anyhow
touch me again with your icy breeze
can that be all you have for me
I'm slow to agree
blow me back and shut this door
it's sad I've never wanted you more
it's like some cruel decree
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EC's here and I'm back again
paper dreams keep folding in
yeah, and when I wake I am sad to see
a place without EC
I follow EC up the stairs
I lay out every folding chair
and listen to words that are a mystery
and play what I can play
I think you brought out the best in me
but whatever comes, comes
I'll play you not quite a symphony
but here are somre chords and some drums
EC waits for a new light
the moment vanishes with the night
watching EC fade was never meant to be
a thing that I could see
I think you brought out the best in me
but whatever comes, comes
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work called today to say
you're needed around five
isn't that just the way it goes
makes you happy to be alive
I call you looking to go
'cause the grit gray pavement looks like the sky
the sky looks like it might just start to snow
a cold bag of tea is sitting
balanced on the rim of your cup
nothing about the morning
is making it easy for you to wake up
words you think they are starting to show
they march out of your eyes like candles
in the windows of homes that we pass by in rows
I hear your voice coming above the traffic
crystal clear, you're quite emphatic
you squeeze your misery between the lines
of everyday things that you perceive as signs
your folks called today to say
they wish you'd had someone to bring
they speak like bells that ring to tell
how well you're missing everything
I call you looking to go
work called today to say
you're needed around five
isn't that the just the way it goes
makes you happy to be alive
I called you looking to go
I hear your voice above the traffic
crystal clear, you're quite emphatic
you squeeze your misery between the lines
of everyday things that you perceive as signs
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chairs in the living room
hand held like a gun
I'll never wonder
how we had fun
the apple's spinning round
inside my
inside my
inside my memories of her
sat in second chair
tuesday's orchestra
she had shiny hair
matched her viola
I think it's time we go into the world
we never know how much it hurts
college was fun
I met no one
the apple's spinning round
inside my
inside my
inside my memories of her
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a man wears a long white coat
he talks for a half hour or so
he puts his hands on the place that's in pain
and then writes a note and goes
another man is answering phones
he puts on a subtle display
he says you just try to get better and don't
worry about how much you pay
there's a place where you think for yourself
then there's a place where it's out of your hands
what else can you buy where if you don't you might die,
try imagining how that might go
try imagining how that might go
you start to feel better one day
and then you get the pain that they planned
shows up in the mail like a rattling tail
you stepped on the nest of the man
who's job it was to take a necessary cause
and bite you for as much as he can
there's a time when you think for yourself
and there's a time when it's out of your hands
what else can you buy where if you don't you might die,
try imagining how that sounds
try imagining how that sounds
try imagining, imagining, imagining, imagining
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I love you more than I could ever
hope to fake
you're more a person to me to than what a million
minds could create
a tongue can shoot just like a blow
a look can seem just like a laugh
you make a lightning bolt seem slow
you write a hasty epitaph
are you in love
are you
I love you cause you are a brick that
I could never hope to break
I'm pleased to know that you exist and
your life is great
I word can feel just like a kiss
I'm grateful for anything more
you make a confident man miss
I pick myself up off the floor
are you in love
are you in love
are you in love
I break the down the door just to say
goodbye
you'll make another door with a look
a cold look in your eye
if you know what I am about
and though this rule gets tossed around
I will never shout
you know it only brings me down
are you in love
are you in love
are you in love
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take me out tonight
if nothing happens
then nothing happens
you're not responsible
you see
the way the faces fall
into the hands of the happy lovers
above the soft candlelight
that's the way we're made to be
isn't that the way we're made to be
like a slow and drawn out speech
you're pretending so hard to heed
I shut a sterling door
it never opens
I gave up hoping
it never bothers me a bit
isn't that the way we're made to be
I took the driver's side
I didn't really want it
now I'm off to hide
I'm like a broken toy
you took me home all right
a perfect lady
you never made me
think you ever wanted more
that's the way we're made to be
isn't that the way we're made to be
like a slow and drawn out drink
you didn't ever really want or need
I took the driver's side
I didn't really want it
now I'm off to hide
I'm like a broken toy
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I found my raven haired beauty
she smiled right when I saw her
I looked in her big dark eyes to find what's in there
but she doesn't care
she doesn't even know that I am thre
I saw her in a movie, oh yeah
I went along for my education
to see what I could uncover
I wanted to be hurt so badly I watched the ending
it felt like a homily
telling me that I will not be lonely
I saw it in a movie, oh yeah
I wander slowly through this life
never to lose, never to lose
I've got my feelings in a vice
what did I choose, what did I choose
never to lose, never to lose
I thought of leaving New England
cause the winter's so unforgiving
the streetlight faded out as I was passing under
had a dream like a memory
a sunny little spot that's out there for me
I saw it in a movie, oh yeah
I wander slowly through this life
never to lose, never to lose
I've got my feelings in a vice
what did I choose, what did I choose
never to lose, never to lose
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This is a complete album of music recorded from late 2009 through early 2010 at my loft in the seacoast of NH. A CD version, simple sleeve with art, will be forthcoming.
Aaron Wrightsman on vocals, guitar, violin, cello, mandolin, electric guitar and bass, organ, drums, and glasses.
All mixing and mastering by Aaron Wrightsman.
released August 1, 2010
